I left my bed

It's been 2 weeks, into the new year full of hope and promise and i've gone and done the opposite what my very blog suggests I do, I've barely left my bed. I felt guilty for a while, for atleast a week. Being in the new year full of new promise and all that crap, I felt bad for not taking up 272 hobbies, waking up to sunrises and siezing the day. Now i'm over it. If this is what I need then so be it. I wanted my blog to be real. It was always a lifestyle blog but the more I wrote, the more I wanted it to be an accurate representation which includes the struggles, the lows as well as the highs. Honestly, I am finding January to be down right miserable this year. I am soooo over the cold weather and the dark nights. I am missing my family and my old friends. I am finding that I don't have many new ones in London anymore and I'm tired of being constantly aroused by anxiety everytime I leave my front door. That shit is tiring. Sleep is either too exsistent or...

I feel slightly embarrassed there even has to be a part 2. I speak so openly and freely in the real world about sticking up for the slimmer girls and yet when i come to my rant, i completely forget about that. Serves me right for typing as i think. This ones for all you slender ladies. I was in the kitchen with one of my house mates, who was telling me she feels like she's too "skinny". I was like, crap, i forgot about this side of things. How much do these women suffer? Almost as much as the overweight or 'curvy' ones now i should think. Since there has been a big movement to stop trying to be slim, we miss out and belittle a giant group of wonderful women who are naturally slim and slender. Its suppose to be under the pretence of "body positive" but all we are doing is shaming a different body type which is just plain dumb. The infamous Meghan Trainors "All about that bass" is a prime example of that. But this is yet again, p...